my dad a special man in our Lifes who tried so very hard to protect us from the pain of losing him.we understood your intentions now because you knew in your heart the hardest thing to do was to say goodbye. we understand now you tried so many ways to say goodbye but we couldn't face the truth that you were leaving us . i was angry at first because you couldn't confide in us because you loved us so very much you didn't want to break our hearts . im no longer angry dad just very proud you loved us so very much that your intentions was to protect us from the pain of losing you .our hearts are in so much pain and aches to stand beside you to receive just one more hug or smile from you . we so want to believe there is a heaven and you are looking down on us. sometimes we disbelieve our faith because you were ripped away from us we didn't have time to adjust. so much so we understand the words sorrow, disbelief, loneliness, and sadness and maybe in time this feelings will ease .. but maybe we are selfish to say our hearts are aching because the only persons heart which ached was yours because you knew you were going away i cant believe we have to say goodbye we love you always Tara